For the past few years, I feel life is not in my control. I feel as if somebody is playing games with me. I meet people who are very nice to me initially and suddenly change, without any specific reason. They suddenly stop talking to me as if somebody has told them something about me behind my back.
I keep losing good friends and positions, even though neither is my choice. I give my best shot and still I feel as if life is slipping from my hands. How to get back in control, I don't know. How to cut off negative people. How to be in charge of my choices in life, I don't know.
I know I am just ranting about my doubts and fears but how to ensure that things work out for me. Recently, I was very happy, things were working out for me but suddenly again something bad happened. I wonder if my fear is baseless or if something is actually working against me. Though I never feel lonely and am happy in life, these failures gnaw at my heart and make me doubt my capability.
I have deep knowledge, good communication skills and good convincing skills. I succeed and suddenly things fall apart. Are my techniques wrong? Do I rub people the wrong way? Just don't have answers to my doubts and fears. I wish somebody would help me.
