Struggle for meaning in life

Days of unrest and sleepy nights
Why is life without respite?
No peace in the soul though the physical body is well rested
Am I complaining again?
No, not again
But what do I do with this feeling of blankness that engulfs me?
I try to reach out
Look for opportunities
Whom do I blame for my condition?
The outside world or the blank me?
Is it an outcome of my lazy self?
Am I really lazy?
No, I disagree
There have been moments of extreme activity
I wonder at the justice meted out to me?
Am I really incapable?
Where do I find answers to my questions?
As I go through my writings I find talent that is unrequited
I tell myself struggle on, this too shall pass.

“It’s not what happens to you, it’s what you do with it that counts.”

This particular quote has a life-changing ring to it. As I read it I was inspired. I thought of writing out a new post. Reaching out to my readers and sharing with them this quote. When you read this quote you are inspired to turn tides in your favour. No matter what you are faced with, a death, a failure, a devastating illness, you can turn tides in your favour. Because as the quote says what you do with it counts, so it is not important what you are faced with. For instance, a death could make you understand how short life is and how we must make the most of our time here on this earth. A devastating illness could show you how strong you are as you fight the illness and recuperate back to health. And success is nothing but a failure turned inside out.
Every time you are depressed and think that you are a failure and nothing good could come out of you, think about all the successful people in the world and you will find that their success is what they did with what happened to them. Overnight success comes to a chosen few. For most of us, life is an uphill climb. We have to move the clouds today and be inspired to move the mountains in future.
So my dear readers falter not if you are faced with failures, think what you do with the failure is what counts.

Happenings

I haven't written anything this year and already 6 months have passed. A lot has happened in my life like I went to Singapore and Bali in March 2018. It was a fantastic trip. I experienced different cultures and came across Hindus who were so different from us, though they worshipped the same Gods.
The trip was full of adventures. We almost lost our passports but luckily we didn't lose them. We thanked God for places like Kailash Parbat, an Indian chain of restaurants that caters to Indian vegetarians. When vegetarian food was scarce this place was our respite. I realized how difficult it is to travel the world as vegetarians. I wondered how we would survive in places like China and Japan? Maybe my friends Manisha Kundu Nagata and Kumar Sharma could shed some light. Because they live in these countries and Kumar is even a vegetarian.
At home, I spend my time looking for jobs as I have lost my job and new jobs are hard to come by. Life is racing at full speed and as I look back I realize I have indeed come a long way. It has been eight years since my father passed away and also since I moved to Mumbai. I was greeted with open arms when I came to Mumbai and I was getting jobs at every place I walked into. But now the field is dry and jobs are hard to come by. Life is at crossroads where I have to take a turn and move on. I have to learn to flow with the tide. With these thoughts raging in my head I rest my pen for the time being. More musings later on...